Briana/Briana

The main purpose of an anti psychotics is truly to calm the mind of the thoughts that cause the stress and manic episodes of being bipolar or schizophrenic. There's that love/hate relationship with taking them. 

It's a pain in the ass always having anxiety when I walk in a room and leave because I think everyone there is talking about me. 

And the times when no one responds to me when I say something and I think they're mad at me and get stressed out, when they honestly just didn't hear me. 

Oh and my all time favorite is the hallucinations. When I'm walking in crowds, I always imagine someone I know in a random person I've never met. Sort of like a mirage but in the form of people. 

So on one hand, who would want to get rid of something like that....but who wouldn't want to get rid of something like that. 

I always feel like I have something to hide. I hate that I get so stressed out being around a lot of people, or even some days, everyone in general. 

I hate my friends think I don't care about them because I'm distant. I'm just sad for no reason sometimes and I can't explain it and sometimes you have to just let me be. 

So honestly, even if I had the money to afford my medicine, I can't say for sure I would take it. 

Even though many days I hate who I am for frivolous reasons, they're my frivolous schizo reasons and I would never want to lose who I am to please another person....

(and yes I did just have to go back and edit this so the end would have an even amount of periods. haha

"You choose what color of the glasses."

More of Ryan's sleep talking...

So Ryan does this thing where he sleep talks and has no recollection of saying anything..and it's weird as fuck.Every time he does it I tell myself I need to write it down because no one would believe the shit he says..

Literally like 30 seconds ago, he let out the loudest fart I've ever heard then laughs and goes, "that's the best cleanup of popcorn I've ever heard." Then closes his eyes and starts snoring again...

Fucking insane right? Exactly. 

Woah.

Just remembered I had this..this was two years ago and holy shit have things changed. 

One things for sure, I'm not a fucking psycho bitch who posted too many Grey's Anatomy quotes anymore..

I really should start this blog back up, but knowing me, I'll just smoke a bowl and listen to music instead..we shall see..

I've disowned my blog for long enough. Starting Monday, i'm blogging every week. I promise!

See you all on Monday.

Don't forget to make someone smile today.

i'm super sorry!

I'm just going to finish out the 30 day challange on my tumblr.
I might not post on here for a while because i really want to get back into tumbling, but don't be sad, i'll try my hardest to post from time to time!

love you all!
and don't forget to make someone smile today. :)

day twenty four

Day 24: Your view on gay marriage

I'm a part of The Alliance at my University. I'm also a part of many other clubs at my Univeristy, and i have to say, being a part of The Alliance is the organization i'm the most proud of. I think every school should have an organization as such so everyone who have the same views, can congregate and talk about the issues of the LGBT&S community. Me being a straight female, most people are kinda apprehensive about why i'm in the organization, but the LGBT community needs people like me. People that don't have the same sexual orientation as them, but understand them, and don't bash them for simply just being who they are. So with that said, i am a huge supporter of gay rights. Love is love. No discrimination needed.